about

i'm thirty-four. i have a son. i'm an accountant in a small town in northern california, the kind of place where you can hear the highway from the gardening section of the hardware store.

i lift, i grow tomatoes, i'm slowly learning mandarin because i wanted my brain to do something that wasn't spreadsheets, i meditate badly and consistently, and i'm teaching myself to code. i made this whole site, which is the longest love letter i've ever written to procrastinating laundry.

i have a weird sense of humor. i find more things funny than is socially encouraged. i'm interested in the inside of other people's heads more than the surface of their resumes. i listen to dilly dally, terror pigeon, days n daze. loud women, joyful weirdos, folk-punk that makes the dishes feel less heavy.

i'm writing a long thing. a cycle of sci-fi stories tangled across timelines: celtic forests around early rome and a small apartment in northern california and the women in both who get pushed to the edge of the village and called by the names of goddesses by men who should have been asleep. it is about artemis, who was never one woman and always many, and what survives when a society decides you are too much and you decide it is right and you leave. it is also about kierkegaard and nietzsche and rome and the moon, because everything is. the first installment is in the fiction section. there will be more.

i'm looking for someone mature enough to know that being our age with history is the floor, not the ceiling. someone with his own baggage and the self-awareness to carry it. someone who reads. someone who can sit in a quiet car with me without filling the silence. bonus points if you can make my son laugh without trying too hard.

- caszie